I know..its been really long since i wrote here. College is so busy. And i hate it so much! Girl's colleges suck! All it has is meanness, back bitching and cat fights. I am desperately waiting for these 3 years to get over AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!
Moving on...
Its my Birthday in 2 days and I am going to turn 18! I should be happy, right? I mean, I deserve to be happy! I am an 18 year old who did not do drugs, isnt a boozy and all that.. I am happy and excited and looking forward to it! but remember how i had told you about my bloody panic disorder thing? Yeah, that bitch just wants to ruin my happy moments! Its my birthday in 2 days and all i can worry about is the panic attack that i will be having midnight onward when my friends start calling. God forbid, they land up at my doorstep.
My 16th and my 17th birthday began with panic attacks. I dont know how this one should be different. My therapist said i have nothing to worry about and all that but yeah, i hate the idea of the spotlight being on me, but i love the idea too! There is no "repressed" thought in my mind...i am just anxious and the anticipation is killing me!
I really really want my 18th to be special and happy and a lot of fun! I dont want to ruin it be panicking for no reason...
Its MY Birthday, and it WILL be a HAPPY birthday. Only I can make it happy, nobody else. And i will make sure that nothing can make these 24 hours that belong to ME, non-happy.
Moving on...
Its my Birthday in 2 days and I am going to turn 18! I should be happy, right? I mean, I deserve to be happy! I am an 18 year old who did not do drugs, isnt a boozy and all that.. I am happy and excited and looking forward to it! but remember how i had told you about my bloody panic disorder thing? Yeah, that bitch just wants to ruin my happy moments! Its my birthday in 2 days and all i can worry about is the panic attack that i will be having midnight onward when my friends start calling. God forbid, they land up at my doorstep.
My 16th and my 17th birthday began with panic attacks. I dont know how this one should be different. My therapist said i have nothing to worry about and all that but yeah, i hate the idea of the spotlight being on me, but i love the idea too! There is no "repressed" thought in my mind...i am just anxious and the anticipation is killing me!
I really really want my 18th to be special and happy and a lot of fun! I dont want to ruin it be panicking for no reason...
Its MY Birthday, and it WILL be a HAPPY birthday. Only I can make it happy, nobody else. And i will make sure that nothing can make these 24 hours that belong to ME, non-happy.
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